[真贵的回忆]

2009-10-06T22:04:00.001-07:00

can my life be as vibrant as before?
it look kinda of dull....

korea lesson on the go ! yeah!

2009-08-30T12:03:00.000-07:00

i'm gona quit blogger. bye....
its so sickening . changing else where

2009-08-30T09:47:00.000-07:00

i'm so happy..... my wonderful 21st bday despite its a mini event....
thanks darling shihui, erfang, my brother, cs, yong ming for sparing ur precious time.
thanks for the effort and surprise.... love it....
thank for the cake and present....
its really memorable for me.... i dont know how to express.

thanks those who sms me and those who send me message on the facebook.
thanks those who called me and wished me (:

really a BIG THANKS.

some are just plain heartless. i will remember who u are (:

see facebook for pictures ....

2009-08-29T09:21:00.000-07:00

had a early birthday celebration with relatives.... its not something big....
most important is the effort bahz.... its my 21st.... i had my first bday cake.
not something big. but i enjoyed....
went to my fav korea restaurant at iluma.... will post the photo soon....

thanks for wishing me a happy bday (: thanks for making the effort to wish me .
not many remember. but i'm satisfied with it despite everything.
thanks GOD! at least i dont feel lonely on this day ....(:

2009-08-28T09:25:00.000-07:00

i'm finally free.....done with all my exams....
cleared my room....it look so much neater now..... much more cleaner.....
the dust my room accomulated this few weeks ..... scary...finally its all gone.

i wasnt in a good mood today.
i flared up....
never mind, it meant to happen....it will come eventually. Sorry !

I'M GONA CONCENTRATE ON MY KOREAN LANGUAGE!
23th of sept.....

two more days to my bday. its 21st bday. but it meant nothing to me.
somehow i miss him but it will never happen again....
he's happily in love....

2009-08-23T03:36:00.000-07:00

just came back from shi bday 21st bday party....was fun..... more than wat i expected.....
won majong... finally....but spent all on mac breakfast .... my brother won more than me lo ):
hahas....
darling hope u like ur present (:

2009-08-21T11:29:00.000-07:00

did i do the right thing ?

2009-08-20T20:45:00.000-07:00

actually i got a urge to change my blog address....to something new so that i can forget everything....
i dont really have alot of friends but i know people do leave impact on your life...
suddenly i got a lot of different feelings that made me wanted to blog out how i feel.

i always thought we could work out, but it was just a dream....
it did leave me a BIG impact in my life.... but we need to learn to accept and give in.
i learned to be more sincere in doing everthing
i always act tough....but i'm actually someone who yearn to be love
which girl dont? i envy her. LOL..... no matter how tough the girl is.....she always want someone to take care of her, to company her...and alot ............

these few days , i been watching dramas, i know i should not do that....its not realistic....but only from dramas....it make me feel better....seeing all the actressess being take care of , being protect....the couple finally get together....it really make me happy....i cried with them, smile with them.....they are like part of my life....

i'm someone who really think alot....
thanks to my horoscope... >.<

actually i want those couples in the world to stay happy and sweet forever....i dont like to see quarrels....its heart wrenching and pain ..... that the most important thing....
爱是一个自私的念头 . love is actually something very selffish isnt it? people just want to make themselves happy, they want things for themselves....so they dont care about how other feel?
especially third party.....i know everybody just want to protect themselves....

i really envy cinderella....he can be with the person he love in the end.

2009-08-17T06:50:00.000-07:00

its being quite long since i lasted blog....haha....its my first SM paper today...
as usual alot of careless mistakes..... haiz.... too nervous....but never expect i can get correct. cause it seem like i never see that type of question before....

i dont know why....i feel so isolated.....so left out.... i dun like the feeling, but who cares. LOL

i'm starting my korean lesson soon...so nervous about this.... i wana master it !
but i think it take TWO YEARS....this is the second thing i'm most serious about it.

2009-08-10T08:02:00.001-07:00

i found companion for korean class! yea yea
i so going to learn it !
master it master it no matter what (:
here i come

2009-08-08T06:38:00.001-07:00

korean dramas always make me cry!
how i wish i could have a love that is as beautiful as now (:
wont it be nice and sweet?
but its only fairytale. TRUE LOVE DONT EXISTS that beautiful

2009-08-02T06:09:00.000-07:00

went out with js and jh today to bishan for revision. Learned something.
But still got more to go.
i'm not sure i can attend chiu ling bday party, cause seriously i need to do my revisions.
Exam are approaching soon! argh!. stress. Madness.

2009-07-31T10:19:00.000-07:00

my exam are approaching real soon, took two to three weeks off. this month gona eat grass. LOL
went out with hweeyee n brother to kushin bo today....enjoyed ourselves but spend freaking 46 dollars for one meal.... now i'm fuccking full.still kana forced two satays down. OMG
today went for physics lesson, we were at the end of chapter. Archimedes principal...i dont really dont what happened since school reopen....never really study or put in effort to understand.... i always have to hug the buddhas leg the last mintue. HAIX
going out with jiangshan they all on sunday... study study study.

hope i can get the new phone tml (:

2009-07-28T00:54:00.000-07:00

never attend school today due to food poisoning, i supposed mine is just a mild case, only symptoms of stomach pain and gas travelling in the abdominal area. doctor prescribed 3 days of medicine for me and mc for today.
He advised me to visit the gasterology due to running to toilet every morning. sound horrified by what he say.... so called"irritated bowel symdroms" not sure whether how to spell. he speak quite softly due to his mask.

So here am i rushing on my report .... and later my onow project.... going out with hweeyee later. (:

stomach is still aching ! argH!
thanks for the concerns from friends > LOVE YA!

2009-07-26T09:25:00.000-07:00

its 12.25 a.m, i'm still here.
i got plenty of work undone. feeling so tense up again..... the only thing that can make me relax is by going for massage. LOL! that is damn costly i supposed. so materialistic . haha.

i felt that i can finished new moon before the movie start, cause i'm so in love with it.

i wonder why i cried again during work. over dosage of loneliness n stress i supposed.
damn it. MY emotions are killing me. i need to stop............

projects undone, Sem test coming.
i needa take lot of leave again !

2009-07-23T09:20:00.000-07:00

i just woke up from my dream, having a bad headache when i reached home, went to dhoby alone to buy dinner for family. had a dream, you couldnt imagine. but it was all a dream after all.
finished my 800 words of script writing today... it was easy to me....

i'm going for my service learning tomorrow, got wake up early in the morning. USH! so tired.
after that , class 1b/21 having a BBQ, too bad shiting not going .... sad sad. hope i can blend in to my group of friend too.

shi ting saw the card i made for her, she say she like it. (: happy to hear that.

2009-07-21T07:55:00.000-07:00

yoyo.....

few more pages for twilight and off to new moon. i'm so curious to find out what happen in new moon. i'm so in love with edward also.

abit busy with school stuffs. but this is the first time i'm getting myself so involved in a storybook. No book caught my attention as much as twilight.... i'm so anxious about the new moon movie coming in DEC! i'm so going to watch it despite how pennyless am i?

week 4 is going to be over, week 8 is the doom week. all my exam are here. BIG EXAM AH!

sian ....i need to work twice as hard as the first mst .
finally i'm starting on my service learning

2009-07-19T07:18:00.000-07:00

i'm back from work . i'm so down on my luck recently, my sales dropping week by week.
no idea what went wrong? did all my usual sale talk but people prefer to buy HP. when i say so much negative comments about HP! what the fuck went wrong? dotz....forget about it....
no interest in this work anyway.... gona job hopped soon! any jobs to intro ? bring it on!

i finally understand myself better. sometime i prefer the child in me rather than growing up.

i believe i can fly ! hehe ~~

2009-07-16T21:31:00.000-07:00

i'm so fucking piss off

just leave me alone . did you guys ever spare me a thought?

went for a movie with aunt, yi mong and brother. wanted to watch ice age first, due to overwhelming reaction, we didnt get to see it, all the slot left was the first row from the screen, how u expect me to strain my head for the whole 1 hr plus. i rather break my neck then to do so.so we decided to had something more enjoyable and comfortable so we went for obsessed. its quite nice...the story plot was romantic at first , but slowly it might give you a shock. haha....go watch it. we took cab home , the show ended at 12 plus i suppose....didnt take note of the time.brother bought a shoe at tangs that cost freaking 159 bucks. for me just a 10 bucks slipper.see the difference btw boy and girls? haiz. pissed off ): its okay. i leave it all to FATE

2009-07-13T22:16:00.001-07:00

i'm so in love with the zettai kareshi n boys before flowers (:
love love love love

2009-07-09T07:47:00.000-07:00

so damn long never post!haiz
got back my results. failed 1 out of 5
at least i did better than i expected. applause for myself.
but still need to buck up. another sem test is coming ! omg!

why do people like to break their promise? i'm so tired of it.
tears flushed down like never before.
heart wrenching and its hurts likke fuck.

presentation for next thursday, heart pumping like mad. i'm the last group!
comes with video recording. oh wat the fuck!

2009-06-23T12:20:00.001-07:00

holiday ending soon ):
still got 4 more projects to go.
did i make full use of everyday?

slacking,slacking.

i'm thinking about my future.

first to go- BTT!

how i wish i can talk to u like never before. but i'm afraid.
i have to let go

2009-06-18T01:23:00.000-07:00

i dont like quarrels. its been so long since we know each other. but why must this thing happen again?
maybe virgo are born to be alone.
no friends better. i'm so tired of quarreling....its like a nightmare to me.
haiz.....

i'm starting to enjoy my holiday. finally. but i got 5 more projects to go ..... jia you
PC show is finally over. i sold around 110 printers and above. nt as good as first IT show this year. but at least i can earn some money.
i still owe two person money, my hp bill also.

i gona rush on my work soon. i have to go for work on sat and sun again. hope the sale will be good.

xiaoyi coming to stay with me at woodlands (:
haha..bonding time ler....

2009-06-04T23:03:00.000-07:00

FINALLY all the papers are finished. i can rest. not really rest.
these few days keep having stomach ache when i have papers?due to stress?
ytd ms help me do a stress test! my stress level is almost hitting the max. LOL!.
maybe? nowonder i feel like dying everytime. ERRRRRRRRRRRR.
watched night of the museum with lin darling, it was funny. make me laugh but cant really cure my stress level leh. HAiz.... never mind, i shall work harder next term.

EEXTREMMLY hard.

i got 5 projects not completed yet. GANBATTEE.
i'm so tired, feel like sleeping and never wake up again!!

lin saw him today, she say he grew fat! i was like omg!

2009-06-02T02:17:00.000-07:00

i'm back to blogging today(:
finally i'm done with 3 papers.left with 2 more to go....its tough
i flunked my structural mechanics, next my maths due to so many careless mistakes. i know i can do it. but i dont know y all those carelessness killed me. freaking devastated over this issue.

hmmm. finally i got my new bestie in class.
i dont have to be so lonely again. ms bunny (:

hope to have more fun everyday .
its alright if i fall down, i will be able to climb up again. TIAN BAO YU WO! (:
jia you mong. after this term test. must buck up ler. no more slacking orh.

2009-05-31T06:52:00.000-07:00

sometimes i really dont know....how to survive for 3 years in poly. without any friends i can trust.
HAIX....

angry of me? haix...what i did again?

2009-05-26T06:20:00.000-07:00

haiz.... i always yearn for poly but now. all i can say is sucks.
How i wish my close friends were with me.
FUCKING sian of poly life. people only care about themselves.
i got difficulty understanding what the teacher is trying to say.
but i got no one to confide in. HAIX....
sucks la......

nothing else to say . except exam coming! stress

2009-05-22T03:28:00.000-07:00

i'm studying like a mad person now.
exams coming!
how i wish i can relax right now.

so frustrating.

tell you something. I HATE YOU!

2009-05-15T03:15:00.000-07:00

i'm back, so long never blog already.

damn tired everyday plus my old sony lappy spoil ler, dont even have the time to send it for repair. everyday study from 8 or 9 to 5.... so tired....

Haiz... this month isnt a good month for me...everything is not going so smoothly like i use to...

so disheartening .....

- so many projects.

-my maths still sucks like never before.

-parents conflicts are not resolving.

-my heart still hurts.

arghhhhh. there isnt any friends i can seek help from, there isnt any one i can really talk to....

i can only talk to my blog? my best place to vent my saddness and anger on....

who know how i feel? 　haixx.... damn pissed off with my parents....

how i wish i wasnt born.... how i wish.. how i wish !!!!!!!!!!!

2009-05-07T03:31:00.000-07:00

all these while, i felt that i can be alone all by myself...
but i really feel tired being alone, no one to rely on, whenever i'm at school, i felt so tense and stress. but i got no one to talk to....how i wish my friends were in the same school as me? or even the same course? the modules are so hard... so many formulas to memorise.... i dont even know whether i can make it? i feel so helpless....
for eg..... i never really talk much to my group of friends....they are mainly frm china....so they chatted so happily.... while i got the feeling of being a outsider....the feeling sucks...last time yvonne is always there with me, but now. i'm all alone... sian): i really miss her....
she's always there to company me, but ever since i entered poly, we never really talk neither sms.... she's always busy with her work while i'm always busy with my school work.... i really miss her.... she always protect me in school de....haiz .....
WHere are you yvonne tan? SMS ME LEH! i doubt you will read this....

i'm feeling so stressless nowdays....so tired everyday....
bleahz..... i cant solve those A math questions. damn it.

i registered for two cca. mentoring- some sort of helping those primary school kids in work and changi ambassador .... like a helping tourist or? lol

how i wish u were still there for me when i needed you. so lame ! its all in the past. BRAT

2009-05-05T07:41:00.003-07:00

i'm going crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
everything is not gg smoothly ! i hate it arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2009-05-03T08:01:00.000-07:00

i'm back, anybody miss me? joking joking.i'm talking to myself.

these few days, was damn busy. so much things going on....

just came back frm ken bday celebration, nothing must...
just had seoul garden together at bugis. then had a surprise cake cutting for him, i didnt even know that. LOL. ling they all organised for him.
then after that went off, need to company brother to buy his sport shoe... wanted to go OG buy at first, but they never sell, so went all the way back to BUGIS .... went to the adidas shop to buy, you guess how much? he spent 142 on the shoe n one running pant for 35. omfg expensive. but the quality is there,lol.

for saturday , [2.5.09]
woke up at 6 and prepared to go mac reservoir for environmental science outing....
finished bathing and wanted to go off , didnt expect a rain , so i decided to bring my umbrella along, when i went down, the rain was over. lol. so i just went ahead to novena to meet js n jh...
but they were late , waited for around 20 mins. after that went to bishan to have our breakfast with my cliques and some of my classmates. hmmmm... then after that shop around bishan,
it was quite boring so we decided to head for orchard....shop for along time , then i manage to buy a black shirt and necklace.... quite nice ...hehe...enough of the afternoon stuff.

at night , went for my great grandmother 100th bday....not very close with her.... but saw alot of relatives.... the dinner was quite near my house...at qian xi hotel.... the food was nice and there were games and show to entertain us.... after that was extremely tired that i fell asleep once i finished bathing.... haha...that all for that day....

i think i'm having a flu right down, i'm so worry ):

2009-04-24T05:35:00.000-07:00

today only went for sch for two hrs....3-5.....
on the way....guess i saw who? its my former ite co op friend..... chatted awhile...
i asked who was in SP. she just told me.... heard that one of her friend quitted....

it quite stressful isnt it ? syura? haiz.....me myself also think that way....

i'm trying to improve my english by reading newspaper....i need to do some upgrading on my vocbulary cos lot of projects are coming....

sian sian sian...JY mong... i will get my DIP cert in three years time.

2009-04-23T05:09:00.000-07:00

i love poly, but i hate the long walking journey....
somehow i feel so stressful....walking with my friends. they walk damn fast and i cant seem to catch up everyday...i feel so lonely.... like got no one to talk to .... feel so sad about this....
everyday our topics are sch work....):

boring.... but i love to learn new things everyday.
my heart feel so tired n lonely...someone pls advise me ....

went to bugis and simlim with jiang shan n ju huai after school, as usual....they walk so fast...
irritated.... blaaablaaablaa...
bought a new thumbdrive 8G. i think is more than enough for me to use ba...i'm worry that my old thumbdrive got virus....so i better buy a new one better.

i always wish for sch to start, but right now. how i wish someone was there for me....
i'm feeling so empty and tired....sorry for complaining non stop.
the feeling is so hard to describe):

2009-04-22T02:15:00.001-07:00

i'm back frm school.
so tired again ....

not enough sleep.
see the A MATH, i gona faint liao...
pile and pile of work.

2009-04-20T08:12:00.000-07:00

am i weird or wat?
till now i really dont understand myself?
i just feel tired and lost...
everyday is the same.
the same old sentence? i'm so tired and bored.
IT seem like we got lesser and lesser stuffs to talk about! HAIX... headache.

sch today was fun, with the teacher MR SIA, but too bad, he's only teacher for one sem
and he's retiring. too lazy to blog about wat happen
all i knew was walking here and there...
but right now, the class look fine to me. some new friends. dont know totally yet.
give us some time. i'm frm 1a/21 ! lol.

are we able to enter the competition?
10k or 5k? look WOW

2009-04-19T07:33:00.000-07:00

i'm here....
i'm starting school tml ler.... hope everything turn out well.
thank GOD! jiang shan is in the same class as me...i wont feel so lonely...
my class start frm 9 to 5 tml.... LONG HOURS....
hope i can know some new friends tml....

sold 2 only today...
sales are bad again!

2009-04-16T07:07:00.000-07:00

sorry for nt bloggin:X
i'm here le....these few days damn tired....
keep running here and there....
brother is away for camp....so i went over to my mum room to sleep. scare being alone.LOL

for orientation , so far i only went once which is tuesday , the day where i settled all my forms. and it was incomplete. i dont even know my class now. dont even know whether i'm in the same
class as ahwei,js n jh...got to wait till tml , i'll guess!
hmmmm....hope i can...at least i wont feel so alone lo.....cos i dont have any friends yet...i beg others had already know alot of friends ler...sad sad sad...

hmmm...went to SP today, acutally wanted to go for flag day...in the end...went to settle jiang shan enrollement stuff....but we dont get to go, cos the tins are all given out ....so we dont get to go for the flag day..... sian.... no cip points also....
i never went for any orientation throughout this 4 days....sian sian sian...
but after settling all the stuffs for jiangli appeal n jiang shan..... it was so tired...running frm ite bedok back to dover again....imagine my card fare....damn ex.... 6 dollars a day...
but she gave me a treat...thanks anyway.....

after everything...went to doby ghaut with jas n kel....shopp around , had our lunch at hot tomato? is it like this? lol....still okay.... 7.90 for my teriyaki chicken chop with aglio ....
hahaha...taste still okay....

bought nailpolish,diary,cleo,some face stuffs. never go and count ler..
enjoy myself with jas n kel....
hope we can go out again...
sch reopening on monday....so worry ....):

2009-04-13T05:47:00.000-07:00

everything is settled (:

intergiro bank,
school fees,
cpf board,
medical check ups

all done ! in a day. thanks to my GUGU!.

hmmm, bought a nike shirt today. so heart pain, no choice. my cupboard really pathetic...
no shirt to wear lo...i scare i will have to rewear the shirt every week.
when i got the money. i will give my cupboard a fresh new look(:

2009-04-12T08:09:00.000-07:00

i'm back to update...
this few days soooooooooo busy plus stomach nt feeling well....sian
hmmm...went to polyclinic. doctor say my intestine were weak, very weak...i have to rely on painkillers lo...pathetic ):

went shopping with lin .
bought two shirts.
one frm levi n one frm bugis street. LOL

a bag frm nike .
two pair of shoe, one frm mitju n one frm bugis street too.

one black jean n one black skirt for 50 dollars only.
considered cheap.

had a shoppin spree. my heart hurts...spend so much money.
but the bag n one levi shirt is my dear brother buy for me de....THANKS!

i'm so busy this coming week.... got so much things to complete.
school starting next week.
gt to hand up all the forms tml.
got to finish my work (MCW user guide )
tired but happy (:
i still want to thank lao tian (: MUACKS

and thank to all the ppl who gave me encouragements when i was down
credits=
mingwei,sukri,jasmine,aini,chiuling (:
thanks for calming me down whenever my tears cant stop rolling down (:
you all never fail to make me happy again. really a big thanks

2009-04-08T09:53:00.000-07:00

i'm here for update ler (:

i'm sooooooooooooooooooooo HAPPPPPYYYYYYYY!
thank GOD for granting my wish.
i never been so happy before.....
when my brother told me, i tot he was joking with me.... i got into SP!!!!!!!!!

beside that, i went for job briefing today.
it was quite different for wat i done before.
i get to learn something new and earn some money at the same time.
2 weeks time to complete my job!.
writing user guide for govt website. sound good right?
everything is so smooth!
thanks GOD for bao yuing me.
muacks muacks muacks....

i got to save and earn money for all the school fees and new stuffs.

chalet was abit ........
hmmmm...
dont know how to say leh...
happy or unhappy.?
dun know la

2009-04-08T02:17:00.001-07:00

will be home tonight for updates(:

2009-04-03T10:05:00.000-07:00

i never get to accomplish something i always wanted to in my life.
never mind, maybe its my fate.

just wanted to end my life for that sec.
but my angel woke me up! thanks alot.

give it a try.
and do it slowly....

2009-04-01T08:40:00.000-07:00

the results are out
its not to what i expected. i get three As.
in the end, my gpa only increase from 3.04 to 3.25!
my results were 3.5 - 2.5 - 3.111 - 3.9.
ended with 3.25 !
i did improved but too late. i didnt know results were calculated in that manner.
i should nt have ........ nvm. its too late for me to regret.. i choose that path ! its my fate.

thanks people for consoling me (:

its too late for me to say anything.
everything is destinated .

i just feel like crying non stop.
tears rolling down like tap water.
heart wrenching isnt it?
i did so much fucking stuffs yet still cant go poly .
its like 3 years.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-03-30T07:13:00.001-07:00

i'm feeling so sad n about to break down...
suddenly i feel the stress , the pain n the anxiety within me.

my bro gona go for his camp, tp camp! i feel so sad when he gona leave me for a few days.
i feel so lonely !
cried ! haix. i dont know why. maybe i'm too lonely.
can GOD fufill two of my wishes.... PLEASE!

2009-03-30T04:02:00.000-07:00

my old love
my LOVE (:

just came back frm shopping at P.S
bought a mp3 at 139 bucks frm dad! thanks daddy!
sometime he's so good , isnt it? he bought it for me without me saying, cos i gave my old love to my brother . so Dad promised to buy me a new one, i tot he was just saying only lo.

TOUCH SCREEN ONE LO!

actually i wanted to buy the sony one which is blue in color de, but its harder to put songs into it, need software like the IPOD de. so i rather take the easier one cos i'm a idiot in Mp3 stuffs.

now i have trouble with the serial no ! lol s. sian :X

tml need to go vivo to pass up timesheet.

this month sales was still k. enough to last .

2009-03-27T07:03:00.000-07:00

yoyo, i'm here again...
went out in the morning today to pass pat the stock take form we did ytd...
walked around funan n simlim square, my leg was like aching lo.... but treat it as a exercise .
so honoured , he called my bro to work only actually but end up, i worked with my bro as a companion ba. but i dont mind, although its tough work ...but its quite fun actually.
for today, as i mentioned earlier, went to vivo , went to mac and bought my boss n pat breakfast.
then wanted to pass pat the forms at the same time, pat say he was at meeting, called me to wait awhile, but after 20-30 mins, he called and asked me to put it at the receptionist so i did, put the forms into the envelope and pass a note to the recep about the breaky, hehe....
then on the way, recieve sms frm pat n andrea for the wonderful breaky i send for them ,
others were so jealous about it . i was like welcome, hope u enjoy ur breakfast, i'm those type of persons, when u treat me good, i will treat u back double (: try me out ! lol.
hmmmmm... so after that, went around walk walk with bro, had a small tiff with him but after that we are okay, hmmmm.... we went to hong kong kim gary restaurant to have our lunch .
he paid with his master card, lol! first time being treat by him... happy . but i dont like the noodle ! my brother ordered one taste nicer. cos i order the chu qian yi ding maggie mee... sucks lo... i dont like, he ended up eating half of them for me .... make him damn full.... so that mark the end of my day....
i'm going to bed soon, cos will be working tml ....
good night peeps (:

hope tml sales will be good .

2009-03-25T08:20:00.001-07:00

tml is 26th of march ler.
5 more days i gona know my ite results.
so worry. so nervous. so anxious.
arghhhh. i'm bursting out ler lo

i'm worry about my future actually ):

2009-03-24T09:26:00.001-07:00

i bought some stuffs for our chalet ler...
so DAMN HEAVY!
mingwei also dun want come carry lo, i dont even knw the three of us can manage ma?
ROARRRRRRRRRRR.

i'm having a bad mood recently.
dun know why.
not enough sleep.
not enough love.lol
LAMER la.....
BLEAH >.< !

2009-03-23T09:44:00.000-07:00

saw the drama just now.
the hu ge and ariel lin, damn touching.... the part where they say the love each other.
so touching...how i wish i can feel that way also! so sweet .
cant stop crying whenever i see couples so sweet...
craps lo....its just a drama. i also dun know why tear can still roll down. BTH!

you will never understand de la.
tml is going to xiao yi hse for cousin's tution!
boring boring.

2009-03-22T10:05:00.000-07:00

waitress, candid darling,candid erfang,me n andrea LAO DA

finally a proper one

me with darling(:

collegues n ms(:

i'm here again....
FRIDAY 20-3-09
had steamboat at friday with canon collegues and ANDREA, my boss lo....
thanks for treating. its yummy, want go together! the boss is kind lo but speed damn slow la.
HAD FUN YEAH!
later u will see the pics....
i ate moderate, my bro ate until stomach damn pain the next morning,
after the game, darling n er fang came to my hse to play mahjong until morning, frm 1-7a.m leh.
i seem addicted to mahjong lol. but i lost $5 and bro lost $14 sia. HORRIBLE!

SATURDAY 21-3-09

rest almost the whole day....cause play mahjong till so early(late) loh...

slept frm 8 to 6p.m....

turning to pig liao la...that wat idiot mingwei always say!!!!!!!!!

SUNDAY 22-3-09
bro went to work with me today,
its sad that eugene may be quitting, nobody pei me ler...so boring lo.... no choice, hope he enjoy his new work! hope to see u again! take care yeah! sold 5 units today.

i gona highlight my hair strawberry blonde, purple gold or chestnut brown!

i gona learn to put on makeup

i want to be a different person !

i going to do eye lash perming soon!

2009-03-18T09:37:00.000-07:00

its 12.38 a.m ler....
nothing much happen today....
just went out collect pay frm the donut boss...
finally he paid up! ITS LIKE WTF!
how long he take to pay me $80 back.
with such an unwilling attitude....
enough of him, he really make me boil

my mummy bought me a everlast watch, its on sale, usual price is $145.
i bought myself a earpiece frm sonicgear today at challenger with bro today.
i bought my dad a pillow,family sushi,bro underwear :x LOL! and chocolates.
spend money again! hahaha...

enjoy playing wii with dad just now.
i laughed so much.
stomach was pain lo.

u always say i never mention ur name here.
okay ! chatted with mingsheng just now...
dont think u are nt worthly for me to say la...sometime i just dont want to make it so clear.
dont worry k ! CHEERS.
even till now, i still dont know the relationship btw us? can we last? haha....
i'm blurr like sotong now.

we are organising a chalet for my grup of friends.
i'm in charge of food!
alot things to buy wor...hehe... but it worth the effort.
love hanging out with my majong kakees.(:

2009-03-16T00:19:00.000-07:00

my name tag

photos with some of my collegues(: in the toilet
me with shihui darling n cindy(:

hihi peeps, missing for a few days ler....
busy with my IT show, very very very tired
but its rewarding. at least i do well in this show.
hmmmm.... wana thank him for comin down, just to buy me a piece of cake(:
he know i'm hungry and yet angry with him. he just called someone to pass me the cake
and he left.... i'm sorry, sometime i did u wrong! maybe virgo are too perfectionist.
give us both some time, i know u dote on me. thank you so much (: u always brighten up my day sometime ! haha...

i sold 26 for the 1st day, 36 for the 2nd , 22 for the 3rd and lastly 44 for the last!
i wonder why i did so badly for the third day, maybe i'm too tired....
haha...but right now my voice is like A MALE! man leh...
hroughtout this four days.... i learn to be faster in term of my sale talk.
ytd went to clinic to drink with andrea,lee , him, cindy n brother. had a good night.
never sleep till 7 am today....
hope i can earn more for this show.
during the show, a guy frm dunknow where call me, and say i been nominated don know for wat.
i'm totally ignorant of the whole suitation cos i can hear wat he say... i was like .... ohh okay ,oh okay and stuffs like that. all i knew was i answered him, my cca was.... and my position was ....
and he say that depend on dun know wat.... i'm talking crapss here. LOL.but i really wana thank GOD/HEAVEN/LAO TIAN for all the good things that happen on me.
wo ai ni orh...(:

and lastly the sms mr tham sent me on the 2nd day night of IT show that make me cant sleep.
"you scored well for ur A-A subject", that was the subject i'm worried that i cant get a A.
but i did my best for every subjects le....
i still hope i can score A for others (:
end of my post for the day ...

i finally found someone who is born on the same day as me (:
ANDREA! no wonder we are so alike.

(People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. )

2009-03-10T09:48:00.000-07:00

i'm here again
its 12.49 a.m......
what am i still over here? haha. dling my bleach ep 102.
my so called holidays are here after this coming IT show.
i can enjoy watching my movie,dramas and animes.
i can be a 宅女.
just stay at home and rest.
its been so so long since i really rested.
so tired, so tired... of the life, surrounding and myself.
i need to take a long rest.
sounded like i'm dying .....
crapppssss.

我只能爱你
i'm so obsess with this song.
the lyrics are damn nice.
you guys should go listen....
heartbroken and damn emotional when i listen to it):

one more day and its IT SHOW.
gona give it all my shot....
hope the recession wont affect my sales that much.
pat is giving me lots of stress when i haven even started selling lo.
haix...made the wrong choice again, but its not what i wanted....

today paper was easy, hmmm . thanks to my bro.(:
at least i feel happy over this.
today mark the end of my ite life.
miss the memories somehow ,although i didnt want to remember it.
but i bid bye bye to the sch before leaving....
never took any photo except one with aini. my malay class mate.
didnt really had any malay friends except for syura and aini....
that my closest de...wana thank her for callin me that day(:
after the paper, went out with my grup, for gelare.(waffle)
enjoyed, we chatted our heart out....
opening a chalet real soon, hope everything will turn out great....
cos i will miss them....
as usual, bickered with mingwei....
sometime he made me damn fed up .... BLEAH.
nvm.... we wont have any more chances either.

sometime i asked myself.
did i really let go?
or am i fooling myself?
i really dont know what i'm thinking ?
i cant understand myself?
):
i'm a failure....

2009-03-09T05:29:00.000-07:00

my class photo (:

bye to BD0704P.

happy to be in this class with you guys.

the memories will always be with me.

2009-03-09T00:02:00.000-07:00

tml is my final theory exam.
hope everything turn out smoothly.

worked ytd.
managed to sell 8 .
quite good depsite IT show coming huh.

i feel so empty, n lonely.
i dont like what lie infront of me.
my future?
my life?
):

2009-03-05T19:39:00.000-08:00

my wii (:

my first cookie redeemption

i'm here again,
time pass so fast, it been 5 days .
today gona be the last day i work at the roadshow,
its boring, but i knw new friends again.
never sell any printers at all.
but i think andrea shuld knw what the surroundings ba

GUESS WHAT, I BOUGHT NINTENDO WII.
ITS BLOODY FUN LO.
CAN DO EXERCISE AT HOME LER!
but wanted to start earlier on. i plug into the power supply
and i heard'POM' short circuit.
the whole house turn dark, guess wat, the wii only support 110v.
bc it was manufactured in taiwan. so i call xiao hei and ask, he say
he promise to change for me. so the next day when von came.
we went to change it.
its working fine now.
ITS SO FUN TO PLAY WITH.

so von companied me to work with my bro too.
ate subway, i won a cookie.
FIRST TIME SIA,
i always won a coke. which is useless to me, i dont like gasy drinks.

sometime i wonder,

am i a good sister?

why my bro treat me this way.

it hurts....

i always try to give him the best.

but the way he talk about money ytd.

i cried before i sleep. i need a shoulder to lie on.

i got so much to think of.

suddenly i think of him, the security he used to give me.

haix.

あいしてる

2009-03-02T07:27:00.000-08:00

i'm here blogger;

so long never write a proper post.

all damn short right?

worked at bukit panjang today, got 4 days more to go.

0 sales= BORING

saw andrea today,my new boss.

better than pat, so kind of her.

chatted alot with her leh....

i can CLAIM, happy.

tml will be my last second day in school.

my fyp POWERPOINT PRESENTATION

hope everything go smoothly.

i'm really bidding goodbye to ITE bedok.

those memories i had with my friends.

had good,best friends,

the journey was like from normal-good-best-close friend and then to enemy.

felt quite sad, sometime i really didnt expect everything to turn out to be this way

maybe everything shuldnt have started. and everything will not have ended this way.

my brother going tp ....he got lot of documents to complete,

i feel so happy for him, finally he can fufill my dream,

how i wish i can. but i know i cant.

hope he does well ....

all thanks to my STUPIDNESS.

to you:

sorry, maybe i should nt have been so stubborn, but u were once my friend.

maybe it was both of our stubborness that ended everything. it happen before and it happen again. since everything is over. maybe when i grow older, i will learn to let go....thanks for taking care of me before. take care my once beloved friend. (: hope u have a happy life after u graduated... i doubt i have the chance to speak to u.... our dreams are no longer be able to fufill.

你是唯一不忘的记忆

真正的爱过才算真正的活过

2009-02-27T01:13:00.000-08:00

i'm so vexed.

u dont understand how i feel.

so much things to go through alone.

how tired is it?

2009-02-20T09:16:00.000-08:00

I HAD A GREAT TIME TODAY WITH THEM.

MS,HY,N TER,DEN,KK,JAS,CH

thanks for making my day...

MS,HY,N TER

its been quite long since i last smile.

MY FUTURE?

WORKING OR STUDYING?

CLINIC RAWKS..

I FINALLY BEEN TO SO CALLED PUB.

2009-02-17T04:08:00.000-08:00

just finish running awhile ago....

legs were tired, heart was tired too.

i seem to be feeling so tired and sad;

nobody can really understand how i feel?

going to school is like a torture to me now.

having to face the sarcastism frm them.

isnt it everybody wish to go poly when they go ITE?

i know not for those who lose interest in studies.

i wanted to study, but i'm stupid.

so i know its impossible for me now.

maybe i should have made the right choice.

ENTER the working society.

nobody to be by myside,

all i can see is fakeness all around.

nvm,i dont mind being alone

after a serious brain storming,

work hard for the last shot.

enter work society,

earn money and led a happier life.

its been so long since i last felt happiness and loved.

it was never the same like i used to feel.

2009-02-16T06:16:00.000-08:00

hmmmm....

today had my A and A phrase test...

still can manage to do it...

hope i can score (^^)

FUCK THE SARCASTISM.

i had enough

i want to leave the school for gd.

2009-02-14T01:00:00.000-08:00

hmmmm.... it the ACTUAL VALENTINE TODAY.

happy valentine to all my friends(:

must be happy with ur GF or BF.

for me. single is good right now.

recieve sms from friends, thanks alot.

you guys must be enjoyin outside with ur dears and dars.

haha. for me, coping myself at home muggling for exams and rushing projects.

VERY no life right? haha.

even my bro is singing at partyworld with her girlfriends .

HAHAHA...

me so shameful.

but its k... at least i'm happy before.

cannot be too greedy de.

at least i feel happy today.

a letter came, i can get GST rebates even when i'm not 21 yr old lo.

thanks GOD. sheng min bao yu.

xie xie. cos i'm runnin broke soon.

okie.... i got to go rush my work ler...

cya later.

2009-02-13T07:42:00.000-08:00

today gona be a special post .

cos its gona be VALENTINE in ten mins time.

although i dont feel anything anymore regarding this day.

i still want to wish those couples out there HAPPY ;

no more quarrels for them.

smile smile smile (:

i'm gona spent valentine alone.

quite used to it already anyway; except for last year de.

but i should thank GOD already. it was indeed unforgettable.

its a year already and i still managed to remember wat really happen that day.

my brother gona go out tml with friends.

so there mum me and dad at home tml.

i was like questioning them, why wont dad buy roses for mum?

he just replied a horrible answer.

shall keep it a secret for him.

hope you are happy with ur current ....

it does bring back memories on this day .

回忆带给我甜蜜与悲伤

hmmmmm.....

my exam is on MONDAY.

stress stress stress.

gona start some revision tml...

i'm so tired today ): after a day of hardwork ;ahem;

2009-02-12T00:57:00.000-08:00

i'm back frm the carnival , mrs tan shi organise de....

was like damn boring.

so tired and HOT.

got no choice but to help out frm 10 to 3 plus...

never really help out, there are like enough helpers ler.

i'm so AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

CL n i never talk for two days since the day we quarrel.

i never expect such thing to happen at all but.

it still happen.

there was a time when we both were like besties n NOW

strangers or enemies.

i didnt want such thing to happen but.

haix....

i told her before there are no friends forever de.

it really happen ):

maybe GOD want me to be friendless.

i'm those kind who wont contact friends or talk to them unless ;

...............

but but but.....

never mind, i'm stress enough ;

i finish my project first floor.

going to second floor.

maybe everything is my fault, it alway happen

secondary and ite.

its like ................

TIRED;

can GOD changed my life?

i just want some peace and abit of happiness .

so i wont feel so lonely.

[当我想你的时候，眼泪不禁的流下

多谋希望有你在这里陪我]

2009-02-10T05:23:00.000-08:00

~~i explained.~~

~~you wont listen.~~

~~nothing i can do, but to bid goodbye.~~

~~she understand me more.~~

had a unpleasant day today.

shall let it pass.

had phototaking in the morning with my class

BD0704p.

for THE LAST TIME,we unite as a class.

graduating in march 16th.

all my memories of bedok ite are ending soon.

A-A= not done yet

project= autocad=100% , 3D=20% ,powerpoint=30%

rendering=0% , report writing=0%

presentation drawing=80%

finishing soon.jia you orh

apply for the courses already, shall wait till

april 3th for final answer.

I"M SO SCARED

2009-02-05T22:34:00.000-08:00

i'm back to woodland today.
today was shagged, very tired. slept at 2a.m yesterday, was thinking about certain things again.

made me lose my sleep again ):

went to school late today again. GOING TO GET BLACKLISTED.

MR TAN is complaining about us . late almost everyday.

i'm trying my best to wake up on time. just too tired.

but before i sleep, i was looking through my architectual slides . doing some revision.

SEE i so GUAI? haha. jkjk.

i'm now struggling with my 3D.

JIAYOU MONG!

then we are almost doge.

muggling now.

school is finishing soon .

2009-02-05T06:22:00.000-08:00

NO MOOD FOR EVERYTHING.

TIRED N SAD

HATRED

2009-01-31T23:07:00.000-08:00

went to aunt carol house ytd....

reach home around 2 a.m,was feeling so tired but cant get to sleep after rolling about on the bed

for mins.

played majong with aunt joy,carol and aunt carol motherIL. lost $1.80 ,

i wonder how my luck? at first, i lost almost everthing ):

lucky the last few rounds managed to win back. if not i gona lose more .HAHAHA.

hmmmm.... beside that , went to er yie hse ytd also, actually wanted to watch the lion dance

de but it was delayed from 3.30 to 7 plus.

so long never go to my er yie hse ler. we ate steamboat there again. but it was delicious to me

the soup was fantastic.(:

i think i gona gain 1 KG! i ate too much during new year. but that not the main point.

my stomach IS STILL PAIN. so many weeks ler.

my parent are scolding me nonstop, they say "see la , keep dieting,later got stomach cancer then u know" HAIX.

i'm really confused la.

even till now, i still feel the pain lo. ):

dont know wat to do....

after these few days of playing, i think i still got alot thing to do.

PROJECT N PROJECT.

today is chinese CHU QI(7th)

i'm going to the temple later and LAO YU SHENG (:

2009-01-29T07:43:00.000-08:00

i'm here to blog...

sorry,was busy with chinese new year and stuffs.

hehe....

i just finish MAJONG session at ken hse...

today luck was good. but nt for brother.

he played with us....but i managed to win 3 dollars after helping bro pay off.

cos he lose alot....but its k...

happy jiu hao...

let talk about ang baos. still nt too bad.

so quite happy with it.

ken mummy gave us angbao also...

i'm gona rush on my project ...

i took 3 weeks off ler...

ganbatte mong....

my bro posting results are out tml....

jia you (:

i'm busy on SAT AND SUN ...

2009-01-23T03:28:00.001-08:00

i'm here.

in the middle of clearing all my unwanted stuffs.

its CHINESE NEW YEAR in 48 hrs time.

i threw nearly a dozen bags of stuffs.

bags,shirts,stationeries,books and alot more.

no wonder i keep complaining i got not enough space.

too much unwanted stuffs.

i buy too much lo.

i should be more GUAI this year. dont any how buy stuffs.

the economic is bad this year.

my parent are complaining this year bonus is bad.

not enough money.

arghhh.

so FAN.

i think i gona start working soon.

my house is running out of money.

as in not enough.

but sometime i wonder.

i pay most of my own stuffs .

why still not enough?

i want MONEY, MONEY.

haiz....

some updates about my life.

sch= still got some projects left undone.

friends= some unhappy incident that change my mindset toward "friends"

work= ECONOMIC is bad, and so is my SALES.

mone= running out like tapwater.

Mood= unhappy ):

sometimes i think what are friends?

ling told me dont take it too hard.

but ..........

maybe i wont be so foolish anymore.

when i packed my room just now.

i saw letters tat i wrote to lin and she wrote to me.

lin ar....we are friends for so long.

so surprise.hehe...so happy we are still friends.

hope it can be forever (:

got to go. haven finish my packing.cya

2009-01-19T18:14:00.000-08:00

i'm here....sry guys.

too busy recently and sort of saying i got no life.

nothing much to blog about.

ling is complaining i'm not blogging.

so here i go....

hmmm...

this year is a good year for all those in a relationship.

i feel that there's lesser quarrels.

so happy for them (:

for me ...i'm busy with my presentation drawing,project and lastly my A & A.

done with bedroom .

finish all those above.

i'm saying bye bye to BEDOK ITE.

bye to all my wonderful friends and teachers.

CAN U FEEL THE TENSION GOING ON !

my sales are bad recently.

scolded by my manager.

i feel bad.i feel inferior.i feel worst.

argghhh.

watever.

I BOUGHT MY NEW YEAR CLOTHES ALREADY.

this year is a daring year for me.

totally change my dressing sense.

hope it will turn out good.

shock to see i can fit into M size. LOL

i'm gona change into a nicer person.as in no more

POLO N 3/4 PANTS.

i'm trying to be a happier person.

2009-01-12T00:27:00.000-08:00

saw ur blog...

happy for u shi hui sweetheart.

ALL THE BEST FOR YOU

must be happy wor.

i'm so stress....

haix...

my brother got his results.

to me. it was GOOD.

but for him, i doubt so.

he aim for 13.

hmmm...

hope he can get into the poly he want.

i got so many projects to rush.

my mind is in a mess again.

i need to complete my work asap...

my port folio.

argh.

my bedroom.

my presentation.

my project.

pain pain pain.

2009-01-11T05:46:00.003-08:00

hmmmm....

i wonder why alot people die at the hand of LOVE

love is sweet.

love hurts too.

the moon is damn round today.

i make a wish.

may everyone be happy.

seeing so many people suffer.

i know how they feel.

its damn pain

2009-01-11T05:46:00.001-08:00

hmmmm....

2009-01-10T05:22:00.001-08:00

my stomach hurts.just came back from work.

i dont know wat illness i'm suffering frm.

i feel the pain since last week ...

maybe because of stress.

too much things to think of.

haix.

why you sms the wrong person?

although i feel glad i recieve the sms.

but its not for me):

nvm....i will forget everything.

STRESS n PAIN

2009-01-06T06:56:00.000-08:00

one word i can say.

i'm tired.

really tired....

i'm really tired of everything.

i have to face everything myself.

maybe i'm destinated to be alone.

A.L.O.N.E

why must you all treat me like that?

i'm graduating in march 16th.

let everything come to a end.

LET ME SAY GOODBYE TO BEDOK ITE.

let me say gd bye to all the memories.

i dont want to remember anything.

it really hurts.

the person who i knw all change.

they are like wearing a MASK.

you all hurt me too much.

but thanks for all that memories.

but i'm gona forget everything slowly.

i'm saying gdbye to co-op people.

(bh,hy,kk,dt,ms,d,a,yt)

all these persons really hurts me.

dont know whether i shuld regret stepping into co op as my cca.

my hearts is bleeding now.

what are friends to me now?

a big question mark.

are there true love ?

a big question mark.

[i'm just a lonely girl under the big rain]

2009-01-04T13:15:00.000-08:00

hello peeps.

guess wat time is it now?

its 5.17 a.m

i'm meeting von n ling at 7 .

i woke up so so early today.

because.

MY STOMACH IS DAMN PAIN. ehemmmm....

cannot tahan the pain lor ):

go and visit my gong gong ytd.

he lying on the bed.

with tube in his nose.

he's so skinny.

haix.

make my heart so pain.

he hardly recognised us.cos his glucose is damn high.

hope he'll be fine by NEW YEAR.

2009-01-03T05:00:00.000-08:00

i got lot of problems surfacing...

isnt this year a gd year for me?

can it be ?

my dad, granddad

hope everything will be okay for them.

then i will be vegetarian for 10 days.

PRAY TO GOD.

i rather i suffer.

i dont want to see them suffer.

i love them . i dont want them to feel pain.

its hurts.

2009-01-02T03:51:00.000-08:00

i'm here again

hmmmm...

went out today with my bros.

went vivo to pass up my timesheet and bank in my donut cheque.

FINALLY I GOT MONEY.

yeah yeah yeah.

gona buy new year clothes soon.

ate sakae with bros.

i am DAMN FULL now. real full lor.

i feel like vomitting at this point of time.

on my way back frm vivo.

saw this couple quarreling.

at that point of time, i felt that if i'm in a relationship, i have to worry about getting

into quarrels. have to give in to him and everything.

so i'm scare of falling in love already.

my current aim is to earn more money.

i wont think of those FAIRYTALE anymore.

cos i know it wont come true.

thank GOD for waking me up.

i'm back to the past. i dont trust people anymore.

i think i trust myself more.

2008-12-31T06:27:00.000-08:00

Hello 2009 ~1 hr and 25 mins more to go!

SAY GOODBYE TO 2008~

the year i had the most wonderful memories and the year i hate the most.

i'm bidding goodbye to it....

MAY HAPPINESS BE WITH EVERYONE IN THE NEW YEAR.

actually till now i'm still confused.

should i study or work?

i wanted to hate someone but i choose nt to.

dont u think its tiring ?

i'll let the past be the past.

so dont come and find me again.

i had enough of you.

i told myself.

i wont listen to all ur BULL SHIT EXPLAINATION ANYMORE.

GOODBYE MR - - -!

frm 2009 onwards. MONG WILL STRIVE FOR A BETTER FUTURE.

aiming for !

my own aims.

shall nt expose :X

people will think its bullshit

I'm BACK TO AUDITION. LOL

DS ARE FUN TOO.

2008-12-27T08:14:00.000-08:00

i hate kana scolded.

SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS

2008-12-26T10:22:00.000-08:00

this is the planner my bro gave me

hello peeps

its 2.24 a.m now.

wth am i still doing here? haha

just finish my bonding session with lin darling.

she's moving house soon ler.

haix... will miss u de...

we went for lunch together in the afternoon and chit chatted.

after that went home to play majong with my parent.

had fun. but was abit slow cos she's new.

lol

lose abit , cos we play very small. my bro won lor.LOL

i just ate a cup of nissan maggie mee.

i say want to diet still eat. OMG!

punish me. beat beat mong backside!

hehehe...

but had fun today although i never go out.

tml will be working again.

hope sales turn out to be good bah...

not the economic is dropping.

i'm still planning for my future.

dun know wat to do!

2008-12-25T06:19:00.000-08:00

CHRISTMAS IS GONA BE OVER.

my dear readers.

did santa came over to ur hse last night?

haha...

hope santa granted ur wish!

pray pray pray...

friday 24.12.2008

went back to woodland last night.

bought a log cake and mugs as gifts for cousins.

they liked it.

ran out of idea .

just give them mugs lor,

its useful lor...

buy toy = throw aside= waste $$

they enjoy the cake.

i'm happy too...

for 25.12.2008

went out with cousin n aunt to amk hub...

bought clothe for cousins and bro except for myself.

lol.

didnt manage to buy anything for myself.

cos the kids were too....

hahaha...its k, i'm the eldest ma...

but my bro bought me a 2009 planner.

its so nice.

i will upload a pic soon.

i meet him today.pass him the present.

saw him, DISAPPOINTED.

but its over.

HAIX..

i feel so.......

dont knw how to say la....

i feel so unhappy.

i'm so UNHAPPY.

>.<

-_-

0_0

hope next year will be a better year for me

好想活的更好

2008-12-24T00:31:00.000-08:00

→因為愛你.所以放手還你自由←

→因為愛你.所以不再讓你困擾←

→因為愛你.所以寧願自己難過←

→因為愛你.所以我逼自己離開←

this is how i really feel ):
sorry for nt pickin up your phone call.
i dont have the mood to talk.
very down very down.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY!
MAY EVERYONE GET THEIR PRESENTS.
MAY EVERYONE GET TO SPEND IT WITH THEIR BELOVED ONE.
MAY EVERYONE BE HAPPY FOREVER
JIA NEH~LATER

2008-12-22T22:29:00.000-08:00

i'm awake ler...

but going to visit my dad soon.

shall blog when i still have the spare time.

ton at chester chalet ytd....

alot things happened....

hmmmm..

i feel so upset , i dont know y...

haix....maybe its sort of my fault bahx.

i'm so tired.i feel like resting....

i hope my bro had a wonderful time with me.

i know i can be that better sister.

just hope u are happy whenever i bring u out.

cos i know how it feel to be so lonely nowdays!

to weiling: its okay...i try to overcome everything (: must be happy orh! smile my dear sweetheart.

to lin: he suspected of stone in stomach or hep a b or c? nt sure yet... must wait scan report. its k...everything shall be alright yeah

2008-12-21T21:03:00.000-08:00

mr ken and chester
our christmas log cake

my present!

monopoly game

when my present was nt unwrapped

when everybody was busy heating up the food

there it goes

my bro playing dota

our fav majong session

i'm back home.
the party at chester house was fun.
we enjoyed ourself truely...
we played majong,monopoly,poker cards ....
mostly gambling.
but my luck was bad that day...
i lost $7 on majong, but managed to win back at poker somehow.
i took some pics, so let the pic do the talking later...hmmm..

i never took any pic of myself ): cos i'm FAT
my dad is in hospital now....
so i'll be going to visit him later.
there are so much things going on my head.
problems after problems.
who to share?
haix....nvm... i can overcome...

2008-12-19T06:11:00.000-08:00

stay at home and rott today! hahaha

i'm so in loved with bleach

NICE NICE NICE

i'm at 63 ep.

i told myself.

i gona be more independent.

i dont have to depend on anyone now.

Mingsheng, happy to see this and hear this? LOL

tml is the day for me to enjoy myself...

exchange present.

mini christmas party.

hohoho...

delicious food .must enjoy ourself.

buying alcohol also, bu zui bu gui.

but we staying at chester hse too.

to shi darling:hmmm, the cupcake look nice but i ate it . the taste is so yucks):

i see u so happy, i'm okay de la...when u need me just come find me^^ i will always be there for u....but dont forget me hor...celebrate someone bday ! u? wana join me? at clarkequay

2008-12-18T06:12:00.000-08:00

hi everybody
cookie monster cupcake

strawberry cupcake

double chocolate cupcake

i promise to upload pic. dont let its cute design decieve u hor):

i'm feeling so tired.
so tired of crying.
i dont wana say why i cry?
i'm just sick and tired of everything
how i wish i can live happily!
lin told me, think of those people who are more pathetic than you.
you will feel better.
i know its true. but my heart just cant stop crying.
its painful its painful.
wake up mong! everything is over.
如果能睡了不醒，那该多好
我就可以保留那完美的梦，不用担心会清醒
即使梦是假的，那又何妨呢？
在梦里不会感到伤心
如果叫我选择，我不会后悔爱上你
maybe i should be more obedient.
let GOD help me plan my future.
i'm so tired of thinking what gona happen next?
really tired...
i shall concentrate on my studies.
the last 2 months.
i'm gona step into working society.
enter into a new chapter of my life.
i'm gona earn lot lot lots of money for my family.
buy house and car....
let them have a better life.
for myself.
i'm gona live better to prove to you i can live without you.
i want to lose weights.
so i started running frm tuesday.
but i skipped on wednesday.
but i ran today as usual.
its abit tiring. cos too long never run le.
i climbed 19th floor again.
my leg hurts at first.but its going more smoother ler.
i'm gona achieve this goal(:
i'm gona enjoy myself on sat.
play play play play.
at least this will make me feel better isnt it?
to mingwei: sorry , i havent started doing the project yet...give me some time...^^

2008-12-17T09:23:00.000-08:00

i'm here to blog...

its 1.28 am, i'm still here...

haha...crazy right? cant fall asleep.

but gona sleep soon ler.

hmmmm...

went to clarke quay today with ling and bro...

went to eat bkt .... spend around 20 bucks again...

ON FOOD LOR.

but i love the salted vege...

i bought the exchanged gift ler.

i think everybody will like it except for von.

not sure she's going ma?

but i'm looking forward to it.

ling and i had a great chat again.

about our future.

we say we gona buy one bungalow or semi detached ...

stay together in the same hse or beside?

is it possible?

she say we must be friends forever!

can we really be?

till now, i only got lin.(we been friends since pri 1)

long right? that why i cherish her.

i told ling,i'm not sure we can be friends forever ma.

cos eventually when we leave one another , as in nt studying in the same sch.

we will drift. but she promise she will call me and date me out.

haha... i hope it will come true...

we become closer during this holiday.

cause she will take the initiative to date me out.

people who know me know that i dont call people out.

haha...sorry that me!

i had this most awful experience.

the cupcake appear to be so pretty. but the taste sucks.

i spend 11.00 on pretty cupcake but yucks.

will update the pic soon.

to you: i really dont know what are u thinking?

u told me all those sweet words...but are they true?

are they true anot? i really dont know what wrong with you?

i'm tired. really. u can just disappear without saying anything?

you dont want me to be sad. but there u are making me sad again and again.

should i believe you ever again?haix haix haix.

currently my life is black and white.

i know its hard to make it colorful again.

how i wish you were the one.

but am i foolish enough to believe?

its hard to change a lepoard spot....

haix....

我还是忘不了当时的你

人变了就是变了

是我想太多

2008-12-16T06:45:00.000-08:00

Hope that time can heal my wound
my christmas wish :
i wish that *you will be happy.
i wish that every couple will be happy .(no more quarrel)
i wish that those people around me will be happy.

i'm happy that we used to love each other.
i know you may love someone else now.
but i know i will not regret.
everything is my fault.
i made you changed.
its GOD will.
hope you will led a happy life.
you must be happy okay no matter what happen.
i know u are very happy with your gf now.
hope she can take gd care of you.....
u always appear in my dream holding her hand.
i feel quite uneasy ,
but its all fate.
fate that we know each other.
fate that we fall in love with each other.
fate that we break up.
but i just want you to be happy like you used to be.
bless you with happiness(:

i dont mind being alone.
although its hurt sometime.
but i will get use to it somehow.
trust me will you.

2008-12-15T20:15:00.000-08:00

went out with ling ytd....

to vivocity!

i asked her to company me to daiso.

cause i got lot of housekeeping to do.

spend alot again):

we had a heart pouring session .

love chatting with her.

i feel so good after saying out how i feel.

i always put everything in my heart.but she's the one who always say dont put everything in ur heart, i'm ur friend, share it with me....if not how to help you?

at least i know she's there to share my burden.

von quit donut again. we both quit! so she need to hunt for new job as usual.

the boss will be paying us on 22nd lor. so long!

i told ling that i hope we three can work in the same archi firm. but she say mr toh wont allow de.

then i say we interview different job, i be interior designer, ling be model maker and von be draughmen lor.LOL

but i know its impossible . so we try to work near each other and go for dinner at night.

to lin: srry about the buffet thing. u arrange it again. cos i really got something on today.

to weiling: i'm worry that i say something wrong again...its like my habit now ler.always apologise no matter what happen. i see you so happy , i'm happy too(:

its hard for me to be happy. i can only smile occasionally with my real smile.hope miracles do happen.

to ms: sorry for making you sick. i know its my fault): i'm the troublemaker

2008-12-14T06:18:00.000-08:00

i'm back home.

today sale was alright.

sold 5 sets.

satisfed with it already.

von came to find me, i feel that we never talked for so long.

am i crazy?

i just saw her on friday.but i talked non stop when i saw her.

maybe i really treat her like my younger sister.

my collegues saw her and tot she was my sister. LOL

i know she may love her boyfriend more than me. but its ok with me now le...

hahahaha...

i think i'm okay to be alone now. cause i call her to go and find her bf.

i go home myself ....this reaction is unlike me right?

i used to want her to pei me do this and do that.

but i think i changed. i can do things alone .seriously.

i let the couple enjoy themselves.i dont wana be a lightbulb la.

i did medicure today.

for 10 bucks.

painted my nails with glossy bale.

so nice so nice.

i'm so into BLING BLING Stuff.

shut up mong ! lol

the donut boss want me to wash the uniform before i get my pay.

wtf!!!!

to lin: i try to change myself.... maybe u are right! i'm too into

i admire u..... u are so independent.

but i'm changing to independent too.

no more sticky mong ler.

2008-12-13T05:59:00.000-08:00

i just finished work.

my xiao yi send me home today.

today sales was bad again.

managed to sell 3 . but two is nt i sell de.

haix

i chatted with my xiaoyi...

she scolded me silly!!!!

why am i so silly?

you know what i asked her?

i asked her.

me ask:xiaoyi, when my friends need me,they come find me?

when they dont need me,they just vanished into the thin air.

xiaoyi replied:silly girl, humans make use of each other? what there got to be sad about?

life is like this de!

because i told her i'm feeling very unhappy .

i dont know why i'm feeling so unhappy.

sorry peeps.):

its hard to smile like i used to.

to weiling, sorry too much things happened...

i just feel so unhappy.

i dont know what wrong with me actually.

i try to endure.

it better to be DONUT customer than STAFF.

HE SIMPLY SUCKS.

maybe i'm really stupid.

2008-12-12T07:18:00.000-08:00

whenever i see people around me happy.

i'm happy too.

you may see me smiling like a mad person.

who know what i'm thinking?

haix...

dont wish to say so much here.

those who are happy now.

i wish you will be happy forever...

i GONA QUIT DONUT.

i really cant take it.

sorry ):

i finished my A and A.

i finished my colorings.

THANK GOD!

how i wish i was abit cleverer...

i cry so horribly .

who care anyway?

i'm about to burst out.

2008-12-10T23:19:00.000-08:00

i had a dream again.

about him.

the dream was so real ):

he changed his nick....

maybe loving you was to let you go.

seeing you happy.

i'm happy.....

i just hope you were be happy forever.

2008-12-10T07:09:00.000-08:00

i cried horribly on the way back home after eating dinner with ling they all ):

i feel so terrible.

the feeling was like so lonely.

at that point of time.

i was like thinking.

if my family were gone.

i'm alone in this earth.

single single single.

why must they treat me like a tyre?

need me come find me.

dont need me just leave me.

am i really so naive?

am i a puppet to u?

do you really think its alright to throw me away when u dont need me anymore?

do u take my kindness for granted?

or am i really nt a worthy friend?

even when i did so much?

you say you want to quit after you found a new one?

have you ever think of how i feel?

do you ever discuss with me before going for a new one?

haix...

you made me think that friend are ........

i no longer trust anybody.

ling say we should protect ourselves first.

maybe its true...

it happen too many time.

i'm kana used too many times ler.

i'm so tired of being a virgo):

2008-12-09T05:36:00.000-08:00

my head is so pain now lor....

just finish playing majong with my friends.

lost $2.65...hehe

but its alright.not a big amount....

i dont know why i choose to let go

but i keep thinking about it.

haix....

i still got alot of work to do...

busy busy busy

no time for that la !

wake up ! wake up!

bf is more important right.

go for it lor.

i'm okay to be alone (:

2008-12-07T23:57:00.000-08:00

i'm back home.

just now went out with my xiaoyi.

help her to sign one new phone line from singtel.

he sms me alot of times but i never reply

maybe its time for me to say gdbye.

i dont wish to.

but i guess that the best way to solve everything.

i'm so sorry.

i dont want it to happen but i know it had to.

the consultant at the singtel was like 23 years old only.

we had a small chat .

she had a 2 yr old kid.

i'm like.....

my life have to go on.

i dont wish to cling on to the past cos i know its uselss anyway.

haix...

memories are hard to erase.

i fall in love with dkny.

2008-12-04T06:03:00.000-08:00

i'm so tired of believing you again.

haiz....

i'm so disappointed...

maybe u are really not suitable for me):

your words hurt me.

its damn fucking pain